i need a vacation...things were so much simpler during senior week every person i wanted to be there was except for two maybe and everyone had no problems at all. and if they did have problems it didnt matter for the week.everyday was a new adventure. everything i wanted out of life was found in ocean city that week not to say i want to be an alcoholic i just miss the whole vibe from everyone. i really miss dan. i miss shawn hoilko and jd. kevin just left everyone split up and ill leave soon too....i guess it has to happen i just wish it wouldnt

are they good for anything?

i'm not sure what exactly i should think about anything at all at this point. Who knew a mistake could feel like this? I'm sure i'll be fine once i learn to let go, but i havent been as good as i once was at pretending everything is fine. My self-confidence doesn't feel as eminent as it once was which is very odd. I'm usually so sure of myself, but oh well I guess its finally time to mark one down in the "losses" column. I'm done for awhile and i think it's gonna take a lot to convince me otherwise. On a side note Bamboozle is this weekend! How fucking cool is that??? Then its justins party so im off to that as soon as i get back....Sunday iis going to suck so bad but i think it'll be worth it.